9 weeks & counting

Because my family & friends are the best ever & have shown so much interest/excitement in our pregnancy, I'm going to start a blog & try to keep everyone updated on our progress. As most of you know, this has been quite a journey for us (a journey lasting almost 3 1/2 years). I don't want to go into all the details because it would require way too much thinking/time on my part, but after trying on our own for about 2 years, we decided it was time to head to the doctor. Dr. Bopp & all of his nurses are wonderful & made this experience for us very tolerable. It's hard to describe the thoughts & feelings that go along with thinking you'll never have your own children. You know there are other people feeling the same thing & some that have long recovered from it, but you don't want to be one of them. You can't be one of them! Not when so many people around you are popping out kids # 2 or 3...or 5 (for Rob & Brandi ;-). And, the thought of not experiencing pregnancy, having your baby look at you the way they don't look at anyone else, & seeing yourself in them. To me, those are just a few of the things that I feel we were meant to experience. The thought of never having that.....really hurt sometimes. I think we managed the situation well overall. We weren't going to let it ruin our lives. We researched adoption (& we still want to adopt at least one). We kept busy with other things. We talked about the advantages of not having a baby. You do what you can to make yourself feel better. But now, now, I don't have to experience this through someone else. I feel sick as a dog sometimes, but I just take it a day at a time...and now I can actually relate to other people when they talk about "morning" sickness (which, for me, is "evening" sickness). At times, most things sound good to eat, & other times nothing sounds good. My tummy is tightening up & I have to go to the bathroom 3-4 times during the night. And it all makes me happy. I'm 9 weeks today & have the 2nd ulrtrasound tomorrow. I really appreciate all the prayers. :-) Please keep them coming. I'll try & put some pics on here the next time I post.